celibate v. chaste

celibate v. chaste

Brahmachari (perennial celibate)

You are.

Oh ...

And I am in eternal wait for You

For You will return

To pay my love's due.

I hurl a questionnaire

Like a sheaf of arrows before You

Why You destroyed

With Your divine power

My demonic persona Mahishi

Who wanted to live with her own

Cursed life woven with

The course [coarse] yarn of

Ugliness and inhumanity.

Why you [You] extracted my dark soul

Confined in the deep and abysmal cavern

Of the long mountain ranges

And infused in me

The nectar of love

And blessed me with the paragon beauty

Of the cursed lady.

Is it because of Your

Sinister desire to burn

Me within the conflagration

Of my tidal youth

In eternal wait for you?

And it is more painful

Than be in my demonic persona of Mahishi.

Now I am quite aware that the flow of devotees

Will never be exhausted.

And so,

I want to let you [You] know,

I am in eternal wait though

But it is not for You

For I have accepted my damned fate

And unwittingly married

With the never-ending Wait.

Be prepared to encounter my refusal

If You ever come

With Your promised proposal.

For if You are a perennial celibate

I am also a devoted chaste.

(The Sentinel, Sunday, melange, September 1, 2019)